First day of semester!

Started a new sem today. Didn't have anything to post during the holidays coz my holidays were boring. Anyways today class started at 10. Mr Prem teaching me for 3 subjects this sem... Concept of Project Management, Introduction to Artificial Intelligence and Implementation Project. As for programming 4, Mr Wilson will be teaching us. Its his first time teaching our class. Hope he will not hate us :)

First day of class was ok.. Nothing much happened. Was damn hungry in the morning. Had lunch at Kuey Tiao Kia. Class ended at 5.30. Well this semester only 3 days of class. Hopefully some of my resit subjects will be placed in this semester because there is more time for me to study for it.. Wish everything will go well for me this semester. Still finding a way that can make me want to study and study hard. Don't wanna fail more subjects. Last sem was hell for me.

I wanna buy a bicycle. I just feel like cycling. I need a new badminton racket. My old one is a little bent already.. I need a new phone. My phone is spoiling already..... Sigh.. So many things I want yet so little money.

Holidays

Holidays are boring... Wanna find a job but can't find any suitable. I don't want to be a waiter or any job which I always have to smile 24/7 because I hate fake smiles..

And... She emailed me with a letter. I don't know what to say but it makes me think so much again.. Not feeling any better since I started the med too. Sighh.. Damn tired of life with so many problems here and there.

I need a yumcha session soon to relax. But with med I can't drive after it so I need someone to fetch me.. And that isn't good because they all depend on me for transport=.=" Money money money... I need money for yumcha but I'm broke wtf.

Holidays

Having my holidays now and just got back from a trip with my classmates to Wee Chuen's kampung and to Melaka on Monday.

Wee Chuen's kampung was a very nice place to be at. On the first day itself we went for a 1hour plus stroll around the kampung. After the stroll we prepared for the bbq session. Ate chicken wings, sausages, fish balls, tomyam soup, and corn. That night itself we slept damn late even though we have to wake up at 6 the next day =.="  But I didn't get any sleep at all. Just can't get my mind cleared again.

The next day, morning everyone had difficulty to wake up haha.. Then when we were about to leave for Melaka,  something happen. Hon Loong doesn't want to go =.=" Because of him 6 of us had to squeeze in JY's car wtf. That wasn't the only bad thing that happened. Reached A'Famosa and it was on maintenance every Tuesday!! Damn.Wasted trip to there. In the end went Melaka to walk around, buy delicacies and have lunch. But the trip was worth it. Getting able to enjoy the trip with friends is priceless.

Exams is over

Well, exams is over..... But I'm not really happy about it also. To celebrate the ending of my exams, I incurred a burn in my pocket. Around Rm200-400.. Don't really know. Because I scratched a car just now =.=" Sigh my difficulty in sleeping is giving me so little sleep and its taking its toll on me. I feel damn awful now. Damn untahanable. I can't even focus in anything I do..


This is not the exact drawing.. Just estimating the area..
Im the red line and the other car is the blue line.. And you see the two yellow boxes which i drawn. Both of those yellow boxes was occupied by car previously... Making the road damn narrow sigh... When turning out from the starting of the red line I didn't see any car coming and thats how the accident happened..

Sigh why does money always have to cause so many problems.. So much money going to fly. And Monday I'm going for holiday with my classmates. Damn.. Strike me at the wrong time really.. :(

What happened to the old me?

I really wonder what happened to the old me? Where's the part of loving to have fun?? Went to cabana just now and all I could do is stand there and also drink abit.. Didn't have to mood to have fun. Sighhh. Watching other people have fun, I feel a little sad that I don't feel the fun at that moment. And recently I just can't hold my temper like last time. Insult/nag me a little and BOOM I feel damn pissed. Not like last time where I can just control my temper. I don't like this at all! Anyways, feeling better now after a short drive around. I don't know but driving somehow makes me feel calm and can help me to cheer up. If only petrol and tolls were cheaper, I'll drive somewhere far and drive back just to feel much better the current state I'm in right now. Or I wish I would have to money to do so. If only I were rich, I won't care about money problem and I will never forget my friends thats for sure. Even my salary last time I brought a few of my friends out to eat some good stuff.. Just only that can't call all..

Internet concept paper on Friday so I better try to study something later. I don't know what to study but well, I'll study the important codes hoping it'll come out in the exam.

"Great"

Just what I needed when I'm having all this shitty problems right now. More nagging and complaining from my mum. Why can't you just freaking leave me alone and let me tide over this crisis instead of making it fucking worse for me. Dammit.

Damn

Sigh Malaysian studies is tomorrow and I still find it hard to study. I can't memorise anything I have read.. And FIFA finals is in 2hrs time.. Tonight will be a sleepless night. I'm going to fail all my papers this semester :(

Last night I was asking my ex-school counsellor for some advice about my problems. She told me:
I have come across 2 cases whereby one of my friend's son, he went to US to study
his degree is 2 yrs. then after one year he came back and told his mum he wanted to take a break because he doesnt want to go back because he kept failing one paper.
so he like shut down and says he will go bck when he is ready
so boh pian, his mother says go get a job with his relatives in JB and therefore he defer his studies. After working for 6 months, he SUDDENLY THINKS THAT HE IS READY TO GO BACK. This time better prepared to face the paper.
His mum was so glad that he went back and finished the last semester and managed to pass the dreaded paper. I am not sure about your case.
Sometimes the actual problem is that you have a mental block.
Sometimes in a short time, this block clears up.
Sometimes you need more time, more exposure to the outside world.
Sometimes it is just that you dont like what you are doing.
Very hard to tell.

So what should I do now? Maybe go work for a few months and see how it goes?
Studies is making me damn frustrated... I can't study at all right now. Just can't find the mood to study. And there's always the cash flow problem. Always so broke. There's so many things that I want but I just control myself and think what I really want to get. But even the things I really want I can't get it.

Spending time with my friends is what I really need. Each time I go out with them, I won't think too much and feel frustrated. The short moment of happiness is what I really need. And now I'm at D'Major with them too. They are the ones that can make me laugh and feel happy :) Thanks buddies!! There's Calvin, Hongsen, Wenjie, Jinhen, Eeyong and Hong Hwee here with me right now. My yumcha kakis hehe.. Love u all buddies.

Update: On the way home just now. Encountered two groups of Mat Rempits on Carrefour and Pandan swerving left and right at slow speeds! They didn't even look out for cars! I nearly bang into those two groups!! Thanks to them I couldn't even take a slow drive home because I don't feel safe with those bastards around me after hearing so many news about Mat Rempits disturbing drivers and creating havoc. Had to speed home WTF.